* LeTs toK aBouT *
FRIENDSHIP/MY FRIENDS
“BEST OF FRIENDS”
My friends call me ‘melai’, my best of friends call me ‘lai’. People might not care or even bother the difference between them, but for me it is something that has to do with my life. I missed being called ‘lai’. But this past few weeks dada’s been there for me, she’s just a txt away though we don’t see each other for months, she never fails to txt me, I missed her so much, as well as cess, majz and mhel. I missed being with them, making them laugh, hanging out with them like when we were in high school. I can’t wait for the month of April! Dada will be coming home and staying for the whole summer with us. Yey!! My best of friends – friends/people I least expect to have foe with. Nobody calls me lai except them. *true friends*
“COLLEGE FRIENDS”
Tiffany, my so called second mom celebrated her birthday last February 14. We had a date, luncheon date. She’s so special to me and one of my closest friends in school I admire her, being practical in all things, something that I don’t have.
These past few weeks, in school, I only hang out with tiffany. I don’t know why. We eat together, do our ass, make kwento etc. and guess what, I soon realized when I don’t even feel or even had to talk with my regular girlfriends. I didn’t expect that we would end up like this. Though we don’t hang out or do the things we usually do as long as our friendship lives. My ever dependable girlfriends, who were always there to help me, assist and accompany me with our school activity and organization projects. Thank you!
“FRIENDS”
It’s a great feeling that someone cares for you, someone loves you as a friend, a friend who I just met last semester and became close recently. I didn’t expect, and I least expect that a friend like ‘___’ would care so much to me. At that very moment, when we had a ‘___’ to ‘____’ talk I decided that I would never let ___ down. I did not made a promise that I would do what I’ve told ___ but I’m wiling to let every word I said will be put into action. ‘____’ been there for me even though we don’t see each other everyday but ‘___’ never let a single day to greet or check on me. Thank you!
“I didn’t mention a name to avoid trouble”
“ALIEN FRIENDS”
Goodbye! For now, though we had a great time these past few days/weeks. Thank you for your time and the company. Though I was just playing around, looking for someone to hang out with when I’m down. Sorry if I’d used you for my own happiness. I was selfish that time. Sorry if I was. But anyway, thank you! I had to say goodbye for now because I wanna be the old melai again. I missed her!
“LOVE LIFE” – “FRIEND OR FOE”
Have you even been in love? Horrible, isn’t it? It makes you so vulnerable. It opens your chest and it opens your heart and it means someone can get inside you and mess you up. You build up all these defenses. You build up this whole armor, for years, so nothing can hurt you, then one stupid person, no different from any other stupid person, wanders into your stupid life. The remarkable thing is that we really love our neighbor as ourselves: we do unto others as we do unto ourselves. We hate others when we hate ourselves. We are tolerant toward others when we tolerate ourselves. We forgive others when we forgive ourselves. We are prone to sacrifice others when we are ready to sacrifice ourselves. But for now my love life is empty or should I say I don’t have something to share when it comes to love. It’s because I don’t have yet my special someone, I’m busy with my studies, school work; projects to be passed; exams. .gggrrrrr! I don’t have a boyfriend but I do have lots of ‘_a_ash’ haha J . have lots of lots of plans with my so called lovelife when I’m not busy with my studies. I need to prioritize first my studies coz it’s been a hell for me this first and second semester this S.Y 2005-2006. I was so disappointed with my grades, even with my behavior. I was lost and I need to get back were I should be. I can’t turn back time but I can make most out of it, though it wasn’t what I expected to be. Yeah I’m available but commitment, a big NO for now. I’m still enjoying, melai is still playing! Having fun! And I don’t care if some people hate or will hate my actions. Who do they think they are! Who are they to impose what’s wrong! They’re so inhuman! I don’t give a damn with their life, and they should do the same. I’d love and care a lot to people who do something that gave me a reason to give my faith/trust, my loyalty, my love, my friendship, my word. Something that no one, nobody can ever take it away from you. As long as you’ve been true to yourself to people, to your loved ones, that is something.
Frankly, I did expect something, I thought that every word they said to me, would never be broken/4gotten; would never wrote in the sand where the wind can erase it. But I guess the higher you expect, the harder you fall. True! But never mind nalang what I just said a while ago. “a person can apologize endlessly, and even if ‘you’ ‘forgive’ them sometimes you can’t forget the pain they‘ve caused you”
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It’s been a torture for me this week, everyday exam, , I didn’t have enough time to review due to some s2pid behavior of mine. haha
*ciao*
-meLai
